I’m Done.

November 9, 2021.Reading time 3 minutes.

So, I am done. No, I’m not done with writing. Selfishly I admit, writing is cathartic. Another outlet, much like my running. Running from the crazies. Running toward, not running from. Well, sometimes running from. I need to write more often, because the written words on paper make me feel better. I hope my ramblings […]

Grief lives here, too

December 25, 2020.Reading time 4 minutes.

And here we are, another Christmas. Time slips through our fingers like sand. Sometimes within the sand, there are sharp pieces of glass. Those pieces of glass can pierce us as they make their way through our lives. They hurt, they get stuck, and they leave scars. But they become part of the fabric of […]

My Birthday Pass

September 24, 2020.Reading time 3 minutes.

There are two days out of every year which are especially difficult for those grieving the loss of a loved one. The person’s birthday, and the anniversary of their death. I give myself a free pass on those days. Today is Jillian’s birthday. I remember that day. The day you were born 31 years ago […]

You Matter to me

June 8, 2020.Reading time 21 minutes.

The older I get, the clearer my vision. I’m not talking about my eyesight. I’m talking about the lens in which I view my world. After Jillian died, my eyes were opened to a deeper dimension. Cancer and death has changed me in many ways. Many of them good. Many, some may argue, not so […]

Melanoma Awareness Month 2020

May 3, 2020.Reading time 5 minutes.

I couldn’t breathe. As I lay my head down on the pillow, I couldn’t breathe. The heaviness in my heart was suffocating. I felt immobilized, numb with pain, not knowing how to feel any other way. Not knowing if I ever would, or even if I wanted to. I’ve never felt such loss and utter […]

COVID19- Day Temporary

April 15, 2020.Reading time 5 minutes.

Saturday evening, March 14 was when my mother and I decided to quarantine in an effort to keep her safe from the Coronavirus. She’s 87. Stubborn as a mule. This decision was before the Governor issued the Stay at Home order, so I was rather pushy about it. The first week went okay. I’ve been […]

May- Upcomimg Melanoma Awareness Billboard

March 2, 2020.Reading time 2 minutes.

I originally wrote a blog post on my Jillian’s Journey with Melanoma- A Mother’s Story blog spot that I administer letting people know I’m working on a new billboard for May. As we are getting closer to the Amway Riverbank run on May, 2020, I am sending out a reminder. Please share on your Facebook […]

Dehydrating for Fuel

March 1, 2020.Reading time 8 minutes.

After Jillian died, the last thing I thought about was my health. My mind was a dark place, full of dark thoughts. Black. Like Melanoma. There were days when I caught glimpses of sunshine, although to this day, I cannot think, cannot hear the word,” sunshine” without cringing. I still feel a sense of guilt […]

Love, Time, Death

February 2, 2020.Reading time 4 minutes.

While I was in Tennessee last week, I was able to attend the kids church. Kaytie, my daughter in law, had reservations about my attending. Their pastor has been preaching on a series, Love, Time, Death. They had covered Time the previous week, and she was concerned about how I would handle a sermon on Death. […]

Toes in the Sand

January 5, 2020.Reading time 4 minutes.

The Christmas tree has been taken down and stored until next year. The outdoor lights are all packed away. The Christmas Villages have been carefully placed in their boxes and brought up to the attic. I’m not sad about it. With all the activities and tasks associated with Christmas, I absolutely love this down time […]